I’ve anticipated this since last year. That by this time of the year, I am again a Momma of a newborn baby.
That I will, again, have to slow down. I will have to lose sleep. I will miss long shower times. Well, not really that long. But showers less than 10 minutes are, I guess, pretty short. So how much more it is to shower on a rush for less than 5 or even 2 minutes, right? Lol.
I will be hungry for most of the time due to breastfeeding a demanding baby. The weight I gained from pregnancy will not be easy to lose. My tummy will be flabby just like the postpartum days of my first pregnancy. I was even mistaken for a pregnant woman in the UV Express terminal and they wanted me to be in the priority lane when in fact, it was over three months already since I gave birth to Gabriel that time! Funny yet it made me upset about myself.
I will have to deal with the emptiness that most postpartum mommas feel after they’ve given birth. It will be more than a week, two, three or even four long weeks of battling symptoms of postpartum depression. Some say they have it for even a year!
I will have to juggle taking care of my newborn with my firstborn who’s now a toddler so he would be able to adjust to our new setup as a family of four. I will have to help him cope up and understand that he’s already a kuya. At the age of 2, it wouldn’t be easy for him to process it all, but I have to be there for him.
As much as I love to just chill and read a book on the couch, I have to attend to my newborn’s cry. My toddler’s playful personality requires reciprocation from me and I need to be on the same level as his energy. My babies need attention more than my hair needs combing.
Yep, that’s my motherhood. Almost the same version as to most mommas out there. I try to keep up with life and try harder to make ends meet.
It will be hard, I know. Most of the things I am used to doing before has to be set aside. Finishing this blog post would even take me hours. Sipping a hot cup of coffee is next to never. And I’m used to it by the way.
But still, no regrets. It may be a cliche already but it is true when they say that…
the days are long, but the years are short.
So as much as possible, I cherish every single moment being a momma to my two adorable babies because I might not even notice that the next time I wake up, they’re no longer babies. They will be kids even before I know it.
Today, I am able to write this post while living the life I’ve anticipated a year ago. Today, I am a mother of two. Some mommas managed to raise 10 kids just like my Lola. And that somehow eases up the tension that I feel. If they did very well with feeding and raising more than 5 kids, I will do well with these two lovely babies of my life.
I can do this! Right? 🙂
Live. Laugh. Love. Pray.