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Gaining Confidence On Breastfeeding

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This is me and Gabriel at Island Cove Hotel and Leisure Park 🙂 Credits to his Daddy for taking these photos.

There are things that I think are more valuable to me now after I became a mother. One of those is the ability to breastfeed my son. It is tiring for most moms, but truly fulfilling. (At least for me, that’s how I feel after seeing him satisfied and happy that he’s able to latch on me. His “Mommy, busog na po ako” smile melts my heart.)  Here’s a fact: I feel comfortable and I think I gained extra confidence when I’ve decided to breastfeed my little man. It’s so easy when you’re in the comforts of your home.
You don’t have to wear your bra and you just have to pull up your shirt if the baby cries because of hunger. But what if you’re in a public place?

At first, I wasn’t open to the idea of breastfeeding my dear little Gabriel in public places. Even though we have a nursing cover, I would feel uneasy and conscious because I do feel the judging eyes looking at me. I am wondering what are they thinking about me and that adds up to stress that I feel deep inside from the sound of a cry for food from my baby. A stressed breastfeeding mother will have a hard time getting the let down of milk, therefore, will result in a more agitated, hungry crying baby. That limits me from going out of the house with or without my little one because I am always thinking of him getting hungry in places where breastfeeding stations are not available. (And also limits me to go to places where lactation rooms are available!)

But one day, I was with my husband in Jollibee, Sucat  because we’ve decided to eat first since the place is just near our home. Without having any idea that there will be a thunderstorm in P’que, we dined in. I fed my little man in one corner under the nursing cover. He was sweating but I cannot do anything because I do not want to interrupt his latch on me. I just wiped his sweat using a cloth. There were some people looking at us but I tried not to mind them. I was also hungry that time and all I want is for my husband to arrive with my chicken spaghetti so I could eat. While we were eating, it started raining. It was so heavy that some people opt to come inside Jollibee just to rid themselves of being wet. When we finished our meal, we gave way to other diners for them to use our table. Bryan, my husband, tried to find a cab for us but unfortunately they are turning us down informing us that the way to our home is already flooded and no car could pass through. Other cabs would also offer a ride but will charge us double the amount of regular fare which we turned down. Some drivers will really take advantage of that kind of situation just to earn more money and we’re not gonna tolerate that. Sorry na lang mga Kuya! Bleh! 😛

Little Gabriel was asleep on momma’s chest as I was wearing him using a baby wrap. He’s always like that when I do babywearing. Behave and asleep. So we decided to stay in Jollibee and wait for the rain to stop and the flood to subside. It’s just fine until Gabriel woke up and cried out loud. He cried, and cried, and cried. Loud enough for people to notice us and look at me with questioning eyes. I can hear some whisper that maybe the baby is hungry. I felt the overwhelming pressure because there are no available chairs for me to sit in and feed him and use a cover. I can feel Gabriel’s cry for hunger and sleepiness and I feel helpless. Left with no choice, I took a deep breath and faced the wall, lowered down the wrap so he’s on level with my breasts. I unbuttoned my shirt and made him latch. And there we are, breastfeeding in public without a cover for the first time. I think some people are still looking at us because of the sudden silence but I really didn’t mind them at all…

After some minute, he again fell asleep. And boy it was a relief! Fulfilling as it is for both of us. The happy hormones are tickling every inch of my body because first, I was able to calm Gabriel; and second, I fed him in a public place without using a nursing cover! 🙂

I felt like I’ve hit another milestone in my motherhood journey. From then on, breastfeeding is no problem at all, be it inside our home or in public places. Of course, I will feed my son  in a room whenever there is a designated area for nursing moms. Nonetheless, I will just find a corner, unbutton my shirt and use my white washcloth to cover the exposed part and latch him on my nipple. There’s nothing wrong with that act, so why be ashamed right?

 

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20 Comments

  1. Kat | Petite Momma

    Apir! 🙂 I wasn’t succesful in breastfeeding my first born that’s why I made a promise to do all I can to exclusively breastfed our bunso. We are now on our 7th month of ebf. Yay! 🙂 At first I was also conscious feeding my baby in public and used nursing covers. But as she grew, she hated the cover and began to grab and pull. Mainit nga naman kasi. The first time I breastfed in public was in a mall. We sat down on a bench inside the department store and boom. Milestone achieved! 🙂 Since then I didn’t use my cover anymore and relied on lampin or the baby carrier (we use SSK) to somehow cover up. Or I sometimes use a nursing blouse. Thanks to mommies online (like you!) who give encouragement for society to normalize breastfeeding 🙂

    1. I have failed to ebf my son, too. But I believe we are not bad mothers just because of that. But for my next baby, I am also vowing to ebf her(hopefully a girl) successfully. I also hope that by then, I am already a WAHM so there’s no need for me to use pump all the time while i’m away at work. Hihi.

  2. I’ve breastfeed my son for 11 months now. I was using nursing cloth at first but my son wouldn’t like it, he’d take it off. So I started going places without taking those coz really, it’s just an added weight on the bag! I breastfeed in public without any covers for more than a year already. Some people will still look, I don’t care! haha!

    1. Because it’s a natural thing, right? Haha! Let’s just give them the sorry not sorry face pag masama sila makatingin. Lol. Gutom na mga anak natin eh. 🙂

  3. I am so glad to see more and more moms get into breastfeeding. I see it more as an opportunity for us mommies. 🙂

  4. I salute you for your bravery. I, too, breastfeed my baby in public. I have my poncho or cape though. I even bring my little man to events and if he is hungry, I cover him up with my poncho. At first, I feel a little uneasy, but Ive realized that breastfeeding is a noble act so why feel ashamed?

    To us breastfeeding mommas!

  5. I used a cover we bought in Rustans when I was still breastfeeding Charley in public. Some people really do judge mommies who breastfeed in public, and it’s so annoying. But great job, Mommy, for doing it. 🙂

  6. Go go go mummy! During our early months of breastfeeding, I never breastfed publicly without a cover — I was too modest. But as my son grew up and the cover became too annoying for him, I learned how to become “bolder” when feeding my son. Kebs nalang sa passers-by!

  7. It’s inspiring to read breastfeeding stories like this. 🙂 I’m pregnant again and would like to try breastfeeding again. I wasn’t so successful breastfeeding my son when I gave birth to him 5 years ago. Keep up the good work! 🙂

  8. Ayi

    I breastfed my kids too, though not in public. It’s not that I’m against it pero medyo nahihiya lang ako and I don’t want people looking at me as if I’m doing something bad. I usually do it in the car nalang when I’m out with the kids 🙂

  9. Congrats mommy! I was too modest so I always use a cover when I was nursing. As they grew though, they came to hate the cover so I made sure to pump and bring a bottle when we’re outside.

  10. Great job, mommy! I’m always jealous of mom who manage to breastfeed. I was just able to breastfeed my baby until 2 months… I did my best but really, the pain for me was excruciating. I pray that on my next baby, my experience with breastfeeding will be different. 🙂

    1. Good luck on your bf journey for your next baby. I will pray that you will be able to push through with it beyond 6 months or even a year. 🙂

  11. Confidence is important when breastfeeding because it makes you determined to continue on until you can.

    1. I agree. It’s what keeps me going, too. 🙂

  12. I was not able to breastfeed my son because of problems with latching and low milk supply, that is why I vowed to do anything I can to breastfeed my next child, if I will be blessed with another one. Breastfeeding is no walk in the park that is why I doff my hats to mums who prefer to do it for their children.kudos to you mum and good luck on your breastfeeding journey!

    1. Thank you Mommy. It’s not a very successful journey for me as well. But I also vow to my next baby in 3-5yrs time that I will do my very best to exclusively breastfeed her. 🙂 let’s do it!

  13. I wasn’t able to breastfeed my daughter because my milk lasted for only a month. 🙁

  14. Mommy Levy

    I only breastfed my son for 4 months because of work. But if given a chance again, I’ll make sure to do it for 2 years

  15. I was only able to breastfeed my firstborn for 3 months and it wasn’t exclusive. I used to think I was a failure but later on I realized breastfeeding doesn’t define motherhood.

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