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My First Year Anniversary As A Momma

True to what most people have told me, babies and children do grow up pretty fast! Today, I cannot help but look at my 1-year-old son and wonder how I did everything that I have done as a mother in a span of one year.

Have I done OK? Good? Is it enough? Have I been the best Momma to my little man in his 1st year here on earth?

It is hard to analyze. But right now, (and I think as always I will be) I am overwhelmed and filled with joy. So I am writing a letter to my dearest first born just for me to somehow express these emotions I have been trying to contain. I am just way more than happy to be my son’s mom.

 

To My Dearest Little Man:

Hello there my Gabriel Zidane. My first born. My lovely little man. 

Today is such a special day for the both of us. A year ago, we met each other for the first time.

We had our unang yakap (first hug) – your first latch, our first touch. Though it’s been a year that has passed by, the memory of seeing you for the first time even if I am not wearing contact lenses at the time I’ve given birth to you, is still vivid in my memory.

They laid you above my stomach, trying to make you cry. I didn’t know what to do. I wanted to touch you but I feel like I was caught off guard, seeing you for the very first time made me feel like I was a baby too. Like I do not know anything in this world. Like I was a robot that has been reset.

I saw your eyes, even shut closed, I knew in an instant that you are your father’s son.

The nurses have told me:

Go on, Mommy. Hug him. Touch him.

And so I did.

That was the most surreal thing in my whole life.

You are my dream come true, Gabriel. Most people do not know that your Momma’s deepest desire is to be a Mom. I know deep in my heart that I want to be a Mom. I prayed hard… And you are my answered prayer. The Amazing Grace of the Lord sent you unto us. 

I pray that God will bless us the wisdom for us to be the wise parent to you at all times. We’re not perfect but please know that we are striving to be the best that we could ever be and that we will never run out of love for you.

I also pray to God, that as you grow up, you’ll be loving, humble and God-fearing. I pray that you’ll always be safe and healthy and most of all… I desire that you grow up to be a happy kid.

As common to almost all the parents as it may seem, but you truly have changed our lives. Most especially mine. And I will forever be grateful to the Lord for giving you to us. We have been blessed with more than what we even deserve.

We love you so much, son! Momma loves you so much!

 

Lots of hugs and kisses!

 

Live. Laugh. Love. Write. Pray.

Mommy Mitch

14 Comments

  1. Kudos and lots of well wishes, Michelle. XOXOX

  2. Awww, so sweet! Moms really have the capacity to love unconditionally! 🙂

  3. It’s overwhelming to see our children grow so fast. Sometimes we wish they would forever be babies so we can cuddle them anytime & anywhere we want…

  4. Reading your post made me tear up. My son is 8 months old, almost 9, and it’s insane how fast the time has flown. Writing a letter to your child is a beautiful idea. I might have to do the same.

  5. Joy

    Congratulations! Motherhood is never easy but God’s grace is sufficient for every mothering task we may have. Enjoy your first year and every moment you have with your baby. It doesn’t last long. Days are long but years are short. Blessings! 🙂

  6. Such a lovely post! Great job momma. You are doing well. We beat ourselves too much but in realitu, most of us are doing just fine. 🙂

  7. Our kids are our gift from God. You are truly blessed to be the mom of Gabriel Zidane.

  8. Hello little man. My firstborn’s name is also Gabriel. How I wish I could tell you dont grow up too fast so your mom could enjoy you more but surely when youre all grown up and independent, she will all the more be excited with your everyday activities. Please be a good man to your mama always as she loves you very much.

  9. What a beautiful letter! 🙂 Children do grow up so fast noh, at least that’s what all moms say. Haha! Good luck on your journey with Gab as he enters the next stage, the terrible 2s! Do enjoy it as much as you can too! 🙂

  10. Congratulations, mommy!!! There’s nothing like motherhood, tiring, awesome and incredible at the same time! ♥

  11. Happy 1 year to you mommy! There are still a lot to learn along the way! Many more years to come!

  12. Congrats! Before you know it, you’ll be considering adding another child to the mix because you love being a mom. I know I do. I wouldn’t change my life as a mom who works from home now for anything. You only get one shot at being a mama and before you know it, they’ll be grown up and gone. 🙂

  13. Happy Birthday to your baby and of course to you! 🙂

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